being on a leave is pretty much the greatest thing ever :) 

its also made me see i've gotten to caught up in school and other people that i don't work on myself any more and being a better person.... i got a little distracted... 

i need to restart, enriching my mind, enriching my daughter and doing things for others selflessly.

this also involves paying more attention to karma and what I'm sending out in the universe.

cause frankly we've had one loooong streak of bad luck lately.

time to work really hard, set goals and be that better person again.

is anyone else getting TONS of views from these online degree websites?? 

its making me think about going on private again.... 

I stole this from a friend of mines blog, i took it to heart and yes, Elisha it made me cry too...

i think we could all make a little more time for our little ones. 

by Alice E. Chase

My hands were busy through the day,
I didn't have much time to play
The little games you asked me to,
I didn't have much time for you.

I'd wash your clothes; I'd sew and cook,
But when you'd bring your picture book
And ask me, please, to share your fun,
I'd say, "A little later, hon."

I'd tuck you in all safe at night,
And hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tiptoe softly to the door,
I wish I'd stayed a minute more.

For life is short, and years rush past,
A little ones grow up so fast,
No longer are they at your side,
their precious secrets to confide.

The picture books are put away,
There are no children's games to play,
No goodnight kiss, no prayers to hear,
That all belongs to yesteryear.

My hands once busy, now lie still,
The days are long and hard to fill,
I wish I might go back and do,
The little things you asked me to.

its been a little rough here, we had some complications with the pregnancy

and went to the ER and doctors a lot recently.

but so far so good things have turned around and the baby's been fine all the way through we are hoping it stays that way.

plus we got an ultrasound in the ER, the doctor couldn't get a very long look but he thinks its a....

....GIRL....  

guess we will find out for sure on august 1st!!!

(its business looked the same as rivers though..just sayin'.)

barrrgggh le barrrgh.

i really have a legitimate reason for not writing any more. 

(I've been trying to graduate early, before the baby's born, not after like my graduation date is estimated)

so its 50 hours a week at school for me, some times 55. 

including 14 school days, every thing else has been pushed aside right and probably will be until December lol.

  so quick updates here and there are about all i'll be doing.

river sings like crazy now, along with her dancing.

she reenacts once upon a December from Anastasia, its pretty much the best thing I've ever seen!!

she gets soooo into it, i intend to videotape it soon and show the blogger world lol. 

talking is her new thing she has picked up SO fast

we are talking everything now! this little girl knows her stuff!

we also got her some tiny frogs, named wasabi and moe. 

(she thinks there fish)

now we are doing this thing before you kiss, you whisper "tepa tepa tepa" and look deeply into each others eyes, while placing your hand on each others cheek. wtf?  

seriously where does she get this stuff?

oh and did you know horses say bah? me either. 

i had a good couple weeks i was feeling like pooh, but its almost completely gone now!! I'm so excited because with river i was sick even to the very end :) this should be a good pregnancy besides the fact that I'm already poking out and I'm in desperate need for new clothes haha.

i wish i had some updates on Blake, but honestly he is the most consistent person I've ever met.

nothing new very often, at least hes stable right? :) 

any who, just a little tidbit. 

boring i know. hopefully something more interesting will happen soon.

blogging.

i will blog tonight. 

i will blog tonight.

i will blog tonight. 

i will blog tonight.   

i will blog tonight. 

(now maybe by already saying this, i'll HAVE to do it tonight lol)

a few of my favorites.

THANKS ELISABETH KATE PHOTOGRAPHY!

just a little taste...

like i said a couple days ago we got our family pictures done.

and here is a teaser the photographer has given us.

PICTURES!!

i needed to add a couple pictures just cause i haven't in so long. 

So this is old, but here is rivers easter basket last month :) she loved her peeps especially! 

and this is princess cheeto face.

these pictures are all of rivers birthday today.

this is the scary pony that makes her cry lol

and this is her shiny tricycle!! she loves it and "vrooms" it every where

and here is one of her doggys from build a bear, i can't get her to stop playing with them long enough to take a picture so i'll have to do that a little later.

we still need to do cake and the candles so i'll take some of those later. :) 

kind of a lame post but i figured i should get some done lol

a little update.

so I've been a major slacker seriously.

with basically everything internet wise, even hobby wise :/

(thats because I've been busy becoming a certified make up artist along with my full time hair school schedule)

but i really really need to keep this blog up so our new baby can see all the things that his/her's family did while they are developing so here are some things coming up and things that have happened.

river is talking little sentences now, like "who is that?" "can we go out side?" plus she can say almost everything if you repeat it to her a couple times in a row.

she has finally hit 30 inches. 

she is a shrimp.

we got netflix too so our lives are sooo much better now that we aren't repeating the same 5 movies (we didn't even have local channels before either) now river is watching barney, Thomas the train and kipper her new favorite show.

Blake is taking the next two semesters off and doing his normal gaming/DnD stuff.

 oh, we also found out we make to much for medicaid and i don't have insurance. sooo we are the tightest on money that we've ever had to be. 

woooo!! here we come ramen noodles!!

everything has been pretty much the same with me only my chest is swollen clear out to no mans land and my morning sickness is evening sickness and starting way earlier then it did with river.

we've also been battling on boy names, Blake and i.

because they are the worst to me

i only like 3, that Blake very much dislikes (the same goes with me and his names)

its okay though, i don't think we'll ever get a boy lol 

we both have SOOO many women in our family's.

and our girl name is all picked out and agreed on :) 

(I'm so back and forth with my entry's haha)

THE AGENDA FOR THE FOLLOWING WEEK!! 

Monday is my childhood best friends wedding!

  Tuesday we are getting our family pictures taken again by Elisabeth Kate photography!!

she took our family pictures last year.

(we are doing our own little vintage version of the mad hatters tea party for our pictures, Katie is amazing so I'm stoked for them to be all done) 

Wednesday at school we have Spy Games which is TA's very own version of the amazing race with sumo suit wrestling and even climbing a mountain.... that should be fun... 

then Thursday.... drum roll.... IS RIVERS 2nd BIRTHDAY!

she is getting a little swimming pool party, a new little red flyer tricycle and cupcakes this year :)

we have a super big week ahead of us and hopefully I'll get the energy to blog the whole way through :)

wee baby fruits.

i've got so much to put up!!

i have pictures from hair show and easter!

plus lots and lots of stories but the most important is...

i found out i was pregnant yesterday!!

i'm only 4 weeks along so i'm still a little sketchy feeling about it

(you know where you don't want to get your hopes up and something goes wrong)

but i felt the same about river and look how healthy and cute she is!! :D

my due date is january 2nd!! thats sooo far away....

i lied.

its been such a long weekend.

and a very long night.

I've got to do something to keep me awake because i have school in just a little while.

but River has been to the ER and the doctors.

with so many different things like ear infections, allergic reactions to her antibiotic (a massive amount of hives EVERYWHERE) nonstop throwing up and a continuous 102-105 fever for almost a week now.

they hooked her up to an IV yesterday because she was so dehydrated, gave her a shot and a prescription for zofran that makes her super high. 

which led to a very complicated problem with multiple pharmacy's because no one had it.

and Blakes & Rivers insurance only covers medications from smiths pharmacy's bleeeh..... yea a couple hundred for this stuff!! :( (not to mention the hospital and doctors bills which is a different story)

but hopefully river will be herself again because all she has been doing is sleeping and not moving :(

my last post.

for a little while i think.

i like the way my friend heidi put it.

disconnecting.

i'm disconnecting from the internet for a little while, taking a little breather and working on baking, reading and sewing a bloom quilt (a BEAUTIFFFFUL quilt by the way)

i'll be back in about a month, probably with lots of news, pictures and random things to say :D

oh...and i hacked my own hair yesterday and these are my new bangs.

i'm rather fond of them :)

any who adios for a bit :)

i've come to the conclusion...

that people probably think i'm nuts with my constant back and forth with facebook. 

so I'll tell you the  truth about it all, my thoughts behind my bi-polar internet habits.

it may be weird to hear coming from me, being a little out spoken, crude and a bit obnoxious that i have some pretty conservative thoughts about living my life.

not in the religious sense or even political but just the lifestyle my family and i live.

i wish i never had to use the internet, i honestly wish it didn't exist.

i don't like computers, phones, or even cars.

(that's why you'll never see me with a sports car, or even a smart phone those things just don't mean a thing to me) 

most things that make our lives so convenient i actually don't support.... such as microwaves and dishwashers. 

(i know that it may sound hypocritical because i USE alot of these things)

but society has made all of this necessary to live.

which brings me back to facebook.

its so hard to keep in contact with people without the internet :( i wish i could walk a couple miles and see a friend rather then facebook stalk...or instant message them...

but thats how society is these days.  

i teeter on the edge, with whats more important to me:  

keeping in touch with the world around me or preserving my personal ideals...

any who i know that sounds like me just rambling on, but there's my very long explanation of the matter lol.

mmmmm...

i don't have much to say lol.

except river made a new little friend named Daryl and he protected her from spiders and gave her rocks. he made her laugh harder then ever. 

he made me laugh too.... he told me

"i ate a fish and it made me 4"

....it made my day....

my beautiful little daughter river.

is not that little any more!!

in two months she'll be two.

this is like a land mark birthday for me because its her officially losing the baby title and stepping into toddler-hood

I've been lacking on the how big river is getting blogs so here we go.

River now thinks she can put on make up, i humor her by rubbing my powder brush on her cheeks or putting eye shadow on her face like face paint (she thinks its very very pretty)

but this morning we had quite the mascara fiasco and she applied it ALL over her cheek and her hair. around the eye area so i give the girl credit she knows where it goes!

she just lacks the hand eye coordination haha...

i really wish i would have gotten a picture but my camera was dead. so i rushed her to my parents so they could all enjoy her cuteness. (at 6 in the morning :) it was worth waking them up)

but besides her love of make up, she loves dental floss sliding the floss through her lips like she is flossing her teeth. 

she still doesn't like food much but CHEETOS are a different story entirely.

i wish i could say she had a favorite color and stuff like that but she doesn't pay much attention to...

...well, anything... only movies, her chipmunks and her books. 

she is constantly out there some where, our little space cadet.

she is capable of talking, saying such things as "mokey hoo hoo" (monkey ooo eee) and "do you love me?"

also "minion" and "book" are near perfection (considering every small person to her is a minion now)

but frankly. she hardly ever uses words to communicate. 

she just points. 

points to cups for water. 

points to cupboards for food. 

and takes my hand to lead me where she needs me so i can "hep" her. (help)

she is still the little dancing foo' she was born to be. 

i don't think i say how much i love her enough.

she is my best friend. 

when i have a crappy day and my positive thinking has left me she is there to cheer me up with her hugs and kisses. 

i'm so grateful to have this little girl in my life, she is a mama's girl if i ever saw one. 

she hates me to be out of her sight, we are just two peas in a pod.

I'm a little behind on my books due to my now busy schedule.

but i finished True Grit a couple days ago and i really enjoyed it! 

i can't wait to see the movie, I've never found Matt Damon attractive until true grit...

(probably the facial hair)

I'm now about 100 pages into Jane Eyre, which so many people have told me to read.

i'm one of those people who can read just about anything and find it interesting, and yes I'm growing more fond of this book....but Jane herself bothers me a little with her attitude lol

now Helen Burns that's where its at :)

also, the few things that i've got my eye on recently....

this fingernail polish, i have the light pink version and I'm a very big fan :)

i've been looking at toms for years, and have never found a pair i really really really really loved until i saw these....

okay, so maybe i have about a million journals but its my fetish. 

the quickest and fastest way to my heart is beautiful journals.

this is my current journal obsession

barnes and noble recently got these...

i've never laid my eyes on anything more beautiful. 

all classic novels with "vintage" covers i'm in love.

and finally this book, i think this is the next on my list to buy.

hmm, we went to the doctors today to check out why our little river has been so sick. 

she has two ear infections and is sooooo soooo onry. 

but i also talked to the doctor about getting ready to start making the next mini fruits, looks like we're getting serious here :) 

oh and P.S. i would like some tips on blogger networking, any good ideas??

hair show.

our school puts on a show every year at the south towne expo center called:

the next dimension hair show. 

here is a link too 2009's hair show highlights

  
this year our theme is female singers who changed fashion. 

we are creating hair pieces inspired by them.

i'm grateful and SO happy to say i got into the group i've wanted from the beginning

Britney Spears!

and the song we are using is circus:

(don't let the video freak you out, are owner makes sure its more conservative)

i'm probably the happiest girl alive this is perfect for me :)

but the show is april 21st or 22nd (i really need to check lol)

i have to sell tickets, they are ten dollars a piece

if you are interested in seeing what we do, please let me know! I'd love for people to be there :)

words to hold dear.

"where you invest your love you invest your life."

-mumford and sons

think about where you invest your life?

quote of the day....

"what you resist will persist"

so use the law of attraction to your advantage with positive thoughts :)

what does our family do on spring break?

act really goofy and laugh so hard we pee our pants?

its true.

hello hot roots!

my new Hayley Williams inspired hair.

i lobe it.

lets just say....

i want this to be me with all my heart.... 

twins!

my pipe dreams.....

mmm, now that we are trying for our second child.

our future is coming more and more into perspective for me.

Blake and I have been engaged for 3 years....

by the time we can get married, our engagement will be 6 YEARS LONG.

yep. our daughter will be in kindergarten lol.

but back to the point.

I've been drooling over wedding stuff.....

 in a perfect world this is the dress i'd buy :)

i found my dream dress here.....

my dream wedding day hair...

and my dream wedding....

its perfect.

i can't wait, and i have so many idea's i want to do. 

{blake also has ideas...more then me in fact.}

luckily my grandmothers neighbor agreed to let us get married at there home. 

the yard is AMAZING. A-M-A-ZING.

plus i grew up playing there all the time so its special to me too.

big sigh...only 3 more years...

There is no such thing as problems, only challenges to over come.