Christmas.

our Christmas was different then any other we've had....

on Christmas eve, we played Yahtzee for hours, and had dinner with my family :)

(because i know my family reads this, you board game party poopers! you know who you are!)

as soon as river went to sleep we had Santa come....

BUT....just when we thought we could go to sleep river woke up at 2 in the morning....

so we opened presents as a little family :)

 river opened her chipmunks first, none of her other presents mattered at all :( they are her new loves she doesn't let them out of her sight.

we had banana buttermilk pancakes with strawberry's and whip cream...that's right....at 2-3 in the morning....it was a mess....but we all crashed afterward.

(river asleep with the chipmunks squeezed to her chest, like every night since)

Blake, being the boy that he is slept until 1pm the next day so we went to my parents house to see rivers presents from them! she was in love :) ...but the chipmunks had to be apart of everything....obviously....

the rest of the day consisted of Grandma Lisa's,  River drinking my coffee, River trying to jump on and ride the little doggy Roxie and River eating all sugary things all day...then being absolutely crazy and angry all night....the end

to make this picture better....river laid them that way....she laid in the middle of them...and she chose to cover her eyes....completely candid.

CHIPMUNKS.

cheesy river face :)

rivers room after santa :)

i wish we had more pictures of dad......

for all the days i missed....

in no particular order. 

-yes its true this is where i live.

-something i ate today. 

-someone(s) i find attractive.

-a day my hurr looked good :)

- a night i loved :) only he knows why, but you can probably guess :) 

-a time i was happy. this looks like a pretty happy time to me.

-a picture of me standing up.

-something i love doing. and that is hair color :)

-one of my classes. 

and for every day i didn't have a picture for this one will make up for it.

because it is amazing....

Day Sixteen.

a photo of the last party i went too.

yep, it was my baby shower....cause i'm such a hip happening person lol.

i was 38 weeks pregnant here :) and rivers name was also going to be ivie....

Day Fifteen.

a photo of me and someone i love, well i love both of them.

(this is RIGHT after i had river so ignore my jiggly)

but my sisters are my favorite people ever, we are different in every way.

Jessie is the quiet passive one,  a walking encyclopedia of the entertainment industry.  

if there is anyone i can depend on its her 100%

Meagan is full of style and i love her need for decorating. she is an artist at heart and a wonderful singer.

obviously i'm the outspoken one in the family haha.

Day Fourteen.

a photo of one of your favorite family members.

my cousin Anthony, he was like my big brother and my hero all growing up.

i always wanted to be just like him, and i looked up to him in every way.

he is who i have my tattoo for on my wrist.

A Late Day Thirteen.

A photo of you and your best friend. 

my best friend has an amazing fashion sense.

my best friend has that tall "dark" and mysterious quality. 

my best friend doesn't have a mean bone in his body. 

my best friend is the biggest nerd in the whole world.

my best friend has always been by my side.

he has never once been mad at me, or raised his voice.

to sum it up, my best friend is the poo, so take a big whiff :D

Day Twelve.

a photo of me.....

since there is so many "photo's of you" in this blog thing, i decided to show all sides of me.

and this is me junior year before i lost all the weight.

embarrassing for me...yes...but its who i was.

70 pounds lighter, and 4 years later i can look back on this picture and realize why i work so hard to maintain my health.

Day Eleven.

a photo of your favorite movie.

best movie EVER. as soon as i saw this it knocked all my other favorite movies down a few pegs. 

Day Ten.

i have no pictures of me as a baby on this computer lol....

so this will have to do.....me as a 4 year old.

this picture is the epicness of EPIC.

Day Nine.

A photo of your family. 

my family.

i love them, we are so different i'm surprised we're related its hilarious.

Day Eight.

a photo of your favorite band/musician. 

i can't just choose one, because they both are so important to me they make me who i am. 

My Chemical Romance is all my favorite memory's and there spunky/creative/imaginative style is what i am in a nut shell.

Nirvana is my other side. they are my crude, raw, aggro, grunge side that i love. 

I've gone through a lot of musical phases in my life... but these are the two bands that stuck with me for years and years and years.

Day Seven.

a photo of some one you love.

river of course. i love her the mostest!

Day Six.

a picture that makes me laugh.

what can i say? other then my boyfriend is freaking sexy lol.

but really this is a side of Blake no one ever sees, he is the funniest person in the whole world and makes me laugh all day. i love him.

Day Five.

a photo of me...but instead of trying to find my favorite i found one that used to be me...

this is how i was all through sophomore/freshmen year, yep.

i actually went to school dressed like this...

Day Four.

a picture of where you went on "holiday" last....so vacation lol. 

we went to Idaho falls, where my aunt lives.

first vacation we went on as a whole family i loved it. :)

Day Three.

a picture that makes me happy.

this is me and my sisters, in front of our childhood home.

I had an amazing childhood.

full of imagination and sisters who were just like me in that sense.

this picture is magical to me, just like growing up there was.

Day Two.

a picture of me a year ago. 

i go red in the fall as you can tell, my hair changes color with the seasons.

i miss my gages :(

Day One.

My profile picture, sitting on the hood of my car in my drive way.

Watching river throw leaves all over the walk way.

My eye brows are obviously drawn in that day, and its super bad looking. 

so i stole this from brooklyn......

I think this is awesome, so had just had to steal it.

day 1. your facebook profile photo
day 2. a photo of yourself a year ago
day 3. a photo that makes you happy
day 4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday
day 5. a photo of you
day 6. a photo that makes you laugh
day 7. a photo of someone you love
day 8. a photo of your favourite band/musician
day 9. a photo of your family
day 10. a photo of you as a baby
day 11. a photo of your favourite film(s)
day 12. a photo of you
day 13. a photo of your best friend(s)
day 14. a photo of one of your favourite family members
day 15. a photo of you and someone you love
day 16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
day 17. a drunk photo of you
day 18. a photo of one of your classes
day 19. a photo of you on a school trip
day 20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
day 21. a photo of you standing up
day 22. a photo of your town
day 23. a photo of your friend as a baby
day 24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
day 25. a photo of a night you loved
day 26. a photo of your favorite weekend
day 27. a photo of last summer
day 28. a photo of what you ate today
day 29. a photo of someone you find attractive
day 30. a photo of you when you were happy.

like whoa.....

I've been going to school for almost two months and have had ups and downs with

being motivated but for the most part i feel like this experience is making me a

better person, more appreciative of what i have. 

also to be more humble.

i feel like nothing matters more then happiness, for my family, friends and myself. not to stress the little things and take everything for what it is and make it the best it can be :)

i feel like i have become more spiritual too. i have decided to start going to church with river! i think it would be a wonderful thing for her to learn principles, morals, plus the stability and hope of a faith.

we are just waiting for the church to be finished, its the new evangelical church that will be in orem. i have no preference really in christian churches but my little sister has ties to this one and i feel like its where me and river will start.

i also feel like being apart from river for school has made us closer.

absence makes the heart grow founder.

this is something i strongly stand by.

i love my daughter more then anything and not until just recently do i feel like we are truly tied together with that special mama/baby bond.

Blake and I's relationship has also just gotten stronger, and more understanding.

I'm a very very lucky person. I'm so grateful for all that i have.

so this is probably going to be a pretty long post about lots of randoms things.

but bringing things up to date and just blogging cause i'm bored and wide awake.

since starting school in the end of September i have become so much more hopeful 

about the future and feeling much better about myself. I feel like i have some me time again, and i'm so lucky to have a boyfriend/babydaddy who supports me while i go to school. seriously blake is the most amazing person i've ever met. 

but the things i've learned so far: men's shaves, up-do's, curling, finger waves, pin curls, braiding, cornrows, perimeter cutting, roller sets, shampooing, massaging, pedicures, manicures, waxing, tinting eyelashes/eyebrows, and probably some things I'm forgetting.

i've also made a few new friends, which feels awesome to have social interaction again!! not to mention i love all the students in my class and my teacher :) 

my vintage up do

and the back of it.

my retro up do

i wish you could see this better but river loves my mannequins, i have two and named them BonQuiQui and Simon Goobler. 

i finally found the perfect jack-o-lantern for my tattoo! I'm so excited!

River is also 16 months now soon will be 17 months. i don't have any super cute pictures sadly but she is saying so much more now! like asking where did it go? it seemed like it only took one week for her to start saying new words non stop. like oh really? and oh no! while covering her mouth cause she knows she has done something wrong lol. 

she has 12 teeth all together, those molars make her one onry freaking pooh.

she also hates eating :( we can't seem to find anything she wants to eat these days.

she is also going through a chipmunk phase. SHE LOVES THEM. we even bought their songs on itunes and she knows the songs from just the first couple seconds. 

she spins and spins in circles dancing its hilarious.

these are river's stocking stuffers for Christmas. so excited to give them to her!!

check out that pony tail! woo! 

these are river's squeeky shoes, she thinks they are BAD-A.

she walks around with her squeek and laughs haha best thing ever. 

this is a very old picture that made me smile today. couldn't help but put it up! 

school is probably the best thing that has ever happened to my self esteem.

 i just feel so accomplished and like i'm going in the right direction.

it feels like it just flows, and fits me

SOoooo happy with life, myself, my Blake and my Little Tuna.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........... :D

tid bits.

mmm, i feel more busy lately because i've finally started to fill my time with more then tv shows.

I read the host in 3 days, i loved it. i like Stephanie Meyers descriptions which is why i listen to the twilight series audio books so much. but the host is sooo much better because the plot is actually a good one haha.

after watching Coraline so much i've decided to read the book, i'm so stoked i just got it today :)

it was even better when i found out the author also wrote Stardust.

I've also been working on getting rivers toddler bed ready. including making her a quilt :) 

(fabrics)

the finished product toddler bed and all :D

before blake started school again. we found a chance to go to lagoon which was one of the funnest days we've ever had together (much much better then last years lagoon trip lol)

we also got rivers halloween costume. which is special for Blake and I. when we were dating we found the costume on one of our first dates and planned to dress our first baby as a peanut. so here she is.

Also. I have 20 days until i start school :D yay for taylor andrews!!

River at 15 months.

River is starting her terrible two's early.

she is a handful and a half.

she has finally started to like some little girl shows which is nice i get so tired of the same 4 movies.

we watch the princess and the frog, and coraline.

(i'm so in love with coraline i'm so happy she likes it too.)

she has learned to blow and whistle this month. 

she has finally started to give me endless hugs and kisses!

she also has started to say alot more words.

including out. which we always have to do...go outside. 

i was looking at all the pictures we took of her at the hospital when she was born.

i can't believe how much different she looks compared to when she was brand new!